remembers

It's all just ashes.
Fluttering down.
Watch your house burn
As it falls to the ground.

You set it on fire
Every time you look around.
Pick and pull through,
What's left that you knew.

Room by room, moving
Your gaze intensifies.
It catches the bed skirt
Or curtains your eyes.

Up it goes, popping
From the heat of your arc.
Hissing and crackling,
Calling your mark.

The crease of your collar
Glows red from the fire.
Curling ashes light down
While the smoke rises higher.

A red ember singes
The back of your hair.
The smell of deception
Gristles the air.

It's hard to breath knowing
Over here, over there.
But you cough and keep going
All you can bare.

Burn down and take in
The past imperfections.
You lose and you win
These glowing reflections.

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Sometimes a conversation
You try to recapture.
Retracing your steps
Is all you are after.

Should have been said.
The stuttering sighs
Defensive instead.
Forget to ask whys.

A lip folding under.
A gaze growing colder.
The waving of hands.
The angle of shoulders.

Two magnets flipping.
Pulling and pushing.
Repel and attract.
Give up and take back.

Fighting a force.
Stirring emotion.
Get back on the horse.
Dive into the ocean.

Use it all up.
Leave none for later.
Of course you'll be back
Picking through the incinerator

4/23/2002